the week

hmm and so i realised that i havent been blogging for the past week.. the week has been busy (or so i hope?) it seemed like one of those weeks where i was pretending to be really busy with my stuff, but now as i look back on the week it seems like i was really free. but i spent most of my time eating - thus i have a bulging tummy now, bigger thighs and arms. haha! and of cuz a fatter face. yeah inner beauty is what really shines thru, but to get the person's attention to see that shine uve gotta get noticed first right? and thats when outer beauty seems to matter more :) but lets say perhaps, jus perhaps, i won the battle this time round?

ive been struggling to find a job (countless of call, ive lost the working spirit, i dont even want to go for interviews that i got) and with some issues with myself (why im eating non stop and feeling so moody, my very poor road awareness, organising my really really messy room) but i think im way better now from the shit mood that ive been feeling. enough bingeing, enough procrastinating from me. i look at myself in the mirror and i dont see me anymore. i see a haggard soul, with bad complexion (hey i dont know why but my complexion is really depressing for me to look at cuz its not in good shape now - honestly!). i desperately need to arrange for a hair cut. haha! i also very desperately need to spend a full day in the kitchen baking and cooking. ive been having that craving but i jus dont feel motivated enough to do my grocery shopping and cook something up.

thankfully my daddy has been here for me.. =) he put up with my bad mood, he always check in on me to see if im sleeping early, he watches criminal minds and simpsons with me (we both laugh at the jokes, be it sadistic, be it sarcastic, be it jus down right lame, or jus down right funny! :D), he bites me every night, pinches my fats to remind me that ive been putting on some weight. i swear - he even knew when i got rid of my leg hair without me telling him -.- (i shall not explain further) haha! he nags at me to clean my friggin dirty room, nags at me to check up on victoria university SAP course, nags at me to study hard for my last 3 modules, nags at me at every single dam thing. he also happens to pay for my every single dam bill :D that is a plus point of being so close to my daddy! hehe. i think, my dad totally rock my world, left right upside down. HES MY NUMBER ONE MAN :)

well, theres also lots of friends (them who shall not be named) i would like to catch up with this week or in weeks to come. hopefully coffee with the girls on sunday will have everyone present :) hehe.. how exciting!

btw, i also tried retail therapy to lighten my mood up, set it right, make me feel better but i think it jus doesnt meet grocery shopping that i jus did at the 24 hour cold storage at hollands today. well, i bought ingredients for shephard's pie. anyone game? :) Charlie can vouch that its quite so yummy :P hehe. Kristel can vouch for my ordering skills when it comes to chinese cuisine and for baking brownies. i miss eating out with Kristel - we have this insane thing for ordering 4 big dishes and finishing it all up. I MISS HER =X urgh, its one of those i miss my roomie day!

so.... i'd blog again when i find something for me to yack about. as u can tell, this post is pretty disorganised with my chain of thoughts jumping here there and everywhere. OH YES, my financial reporting teacher Sami so has the Yoda voice "may the force be with u" hehehe! :P

nightie people. have a gorgeous weekend of beautiful people and super cool hang outs. ITS FRIDAY TMR! :D YAY! but i cant go attica with elaine cuz ive got morning class on sat. urgh, all the very very hot men.. *DROOLS* elaine, be my eyes!